There is way too much going on right now, and not enough time for me to even catch my breath.

Here we go

April11,2010

11:37pm thoughts:

Emergency kit in case of earthquake.

1.) Do you guys have one? I don't. But I'm a little nervous that we may be getting a big one in the next couple of days, because predictions say that we are. Not exactly sure what I would put in an emergency bag.

2.) My Uncle was admitted back into the hospital a couple of weeks ago. When I left him on Easter, he was doing really well. I wish I didn't leave thinking I had so much time left, and I just got word that he isn't speaking anymore. Hope I can go home soon to see him. Your prayers are appreciated.

3.) For those of you concerned, I'm sleeping better at night. But maybe I spoke too soon because of all this earthquake talk! (And here I was complaining that I would never feel them. Universe is about to slap me on the face!)

birthday party

shelly mel & i are having a birthday party together next week

so if you read this, this is your invite

labrie's lounge in glendale

april 16, 2010

see you there sweetcheeks

He likes you He likes me not

A guy likes you if you can answer YES to all of these questions.

1. Does he invite you to places all the time?
2. Has he gone out of his way to see you/spend time with you?
3. Has he said (out loud) that he likes you?
—–
If you answered NO to any of these questions, then he probably
a. is just interested
b. thinks you’re a friend .. (ouch)

If he has displayed any courtship signals AKA kissed you/ held your hand.. one of many things could be happening.
1. He was drunk
2. He thinks you’re cute
3. Both

FAQ
What if he might like me, and doesn’t really know yet?
Think about it. If he doesn’t know that he likes you.. THEN HE DOESN’T

What if he says he doesn’t want to ruin what we have?
He doesn’t want to take that extra step with you. Enjoy what you DO have with him.. and move on.

What if he says he’s not looking for a relationship?
Usually..unless you’re 30+.. no one is looking for a relationship. They come naturally, they just happen.
If he says that he’s not ready for one, he doesn’t see you growing intimately.

He told me, “I deserve better.”
Believe him.

It can be really difficult to try and decipher those little signals, prolonged stares, and occasional body contact..
but essentially, it all comes down to the basics.

When you come from an all girls school, asked opinions of male friends, and have discussed/given advice on how to deal with crushes, failed romances, pseudo-relationships, and the beginning of courtship..

you begin to notice certain things.

If he likes you, you’d know.
If he doesn’t, you’d be confused.

Save yourselves the agony, ladies.
& trust your gut.

for my wonderful girlfriends

Taken from my Ading's blog--Love you, Tash.

Lucky

Unconditional is a strong word that only should be used for certain people in your life.

How do you love someone so much, regardless of what decisions they make or idiotic things they do? Or how irresponsible they are? Or selfish they can be sometimes?

I don't know.

Ask my parents.

You know it's bad

When you sleep so time goes by faster.

Seriously, March has nothing but bullshit to me. For about three weeks I've been at my all time low.. Really low. Like the bacteria that feeds off the scum low. Like I've misplaced my dignity for a couple of weeks low. THAT kind of low. I wish I could write all about it, but I don't really feel like it kind of low. But things are starting to piece itself together, thank God--SERIOUSLY. It was the kind of low that you thought you'd never get out of it kind of low. Not sure if the good has snuck itself out yet, but maybe I'm just being dramatic... Cause I sure as hell have not seen it yet!

But anyway.. for the first time in almost 23 years I almost.. don't care about my birthday this year. I almost wish I could postpone it a couple of months because of I don't even feel like I deserve anything kind of low.

Maybe I'll change my mind in a couple of weeks, I just think I have so much to worry about before I even think about celebrating anything at all.

On a lighter note--I've started my OB clinicals and hopefully I'll be delivering babies all month =) If I can't be happy, I can help someone else deliver theirs. No?

Hope everyone has a good month (=