Do werq.

Yeah. thats exactly what I'm doing.

Working is kicking my ass. Its tiring, draining (emotionally, physically, mentally).
I don't eat at work usually. On a good day, I'll eat breakfast.. and have lunch on time.
On a good day, I won't hold in my pee and leave work on time.

I'm constantly thinking of my patients, even when I come home. To do lists are running through my head, procedures, medications, doctors names. And I wake up at 5:20am to do it all over again.

I know it sounds like I'm complaining.  The truth is, is that its really overwhelming.  I'm super thankful that I'm employed, and that I'm learning a WHOLE LOT. Because if there's one thing I learned -- this is nothing like nursing school and you never do in fact, stop learning. And the stress and tears right now, are paying my bills and these hellforsaken student loans. And giving me the opportunity to do what I want on my days off (besides sleep).

That, buddies, is my life right now. WORK. Being on my feet 12 and a half hours of the day.. wiping ass, pulling, pushing, poking, charting, listening, calling, answering.

"It'll get better," is what I've heard. A lot of "you'll get used to it.. give it a few more months."
"Don't worry, its always like this in the beginning."

LOL, I guess we'll see.